Caught in between

I'm supposed to be at Malaysia Airlines Academy at this hour but, what am i doing now??!! Well, sad to say that i had to let go the offer from MAS. It wasnt my destiny i guess. I had to choose, between my pay in my current airlines or the new-found-job. My pay being hold by SIA ever since i tendered my resignation. Until i surrender my crew pass and other necessary things, they will hold onto it, tightly. *sigh*

I did ask the HR of MAS. Instead of negotiating, end up, i got scolded. Kenapa????!!!! As to ease my broken heart, i told myself "if they cant be considerate and so rude towards u even when u weren't their employee, imagine how would it be if u are their employee? Will they be tolerate or concern of ur problem?" Hmmm...a few of my friend agreed with the move that i took. Takpe kan, rezeki Allah tu ada dimana2. Berusaha, insyaAllah adelah rezeki tu.

Then again, i received an email. Interview for MBA. Aaaaaaaa!! I'm caught in between, again! It will be tomorrow, and tomorrow i need to return my crew pass and other stuff to my company! Oh, pls don't tell me i have no more chance... :(
I'm so depress now. Need a big hug. *sobs*

Mencari berkat dalam sesuap nasi

Tajuk post tak nak berat pulak kan? Huhu. Berkat ni bukan kita yang nilai. Semuanya kat akhirat nanti kita tau. A friend of mine told me that rezeki yang diberkati ni tak selalunya semewah rezeki yang tak diberkati. Tapi siapa kita nak nilai semua tu? Maybe people might say, keje i as a stewardess, rezeki tak diberkati and tak wajib pon bayar zakat dengan pendapatan tu. tapi, niat i keje ikhlas. Bayar zakat pendapatan pon ikhlas. Berkat atau tak, itu saya serahkan kat Allah SWT sebab dia maha mengetahui.

I've been offered by MAlaysia Airlines, to be their stewardess. Again, a friend of mine masih berkias2 in her words. Dalam berkias tu, i faham lah apa yang cuba disampaikan. She's trying to say, my rezeki is not berkat. Haish.. Susah kan? I taknak jadi isteri yang duduk kat rumah, mintak duit dari suami je. I nak jadi isteri yang boleh ringankan beban suami. Huhu.

Kalau ada sape2 yang bijaksana terbaca post saya ni, maybe can share how could we find a berkat in our job?

Jom kahwin!

I missed a looooooots of wedding in December and January. Tapi paling terkilan tak dapat pergi my bestfriend punya wedding back in December. Nak tuka flight but my the quota has finished. Sorry tau Puan Liana Jamin (dia tak baca pon blog ni)
:(

Everytime i jumpa my friend yang dah lama tak jumpa, confirm they'll ask "best tak kahwin?". Gila kata tak best?! Best kot! Kenapa saya kata best? Sebab we like having a best of bestfriend for a lifetime! Kalau susah, sama2 susah.kan? Kalau senang, senang sorang2. Eh eh, tak, senang pon sama2. Apelagi eh? Rasa2 cam no words can describe. So, nak tau best ke tak best, jom kahwin! Hehe.

post post (boleh?) lol!
U might think that nak kahwin susah. But, once u dah ada niat, insyaAllah, Allah swr we'll make things easy for u. Fikir positif je.

I need a new job!

"i pegi interview for malaysia airlines" and everybody was like "WHAT??!!!" Ape what2? If u could give me a better job than stewardess, cepat lah bagi! It's not that i hate to become a stewardess but i just wanna be home... :'(

I went for few interview for the post of lanscape architect. Tp bila sit down depan si interviewer tu, boleh dia kata "oh, awak ni stewardess. Ur experience in landscape architecture is not that much. Bla bla bla...". Ewah, kalau i dah datang baru nak view resume, sangatlah xprofessional wahai employer. I was soooo annoyed with this kind of people. Buang masa je tau. Masa kau pon terbuang jugak kan. If u think my experience isn't that much as u expected, pls, don't ask me to come for the interview. I have a loooooots of things to do during my off day. Rasa macam dah give up mencari kerja di bumi malaysia mi tapi i really have to.

IF i'm successful in malaysia airlines interview, do u think i should go?there'll be another 2 years bond... :(

Happy 2013!

It's 2013 uolss! Well, i dont really fancy new year cuz the day after tomorrow of it, there'll be an adding to my age. Blergh! Anyway, age doesnt really matter but what have i achieve is matter. At the brink of 27, i'm still a stewardess (if i could turn back the time, i wont accept the offer). But hey, look at the bright side. With that income, i could afford my wedding, having our very own apartment very soon and own a car! And to have some saving for the future.


If u think u havent achieve much in ur life, remember that it's always not to late to start. Kan kan? Me and my sister is planning to do some business. I shall share it here soon. :D

2013, let's have a great time together!

p/s : wish that Allah will bless us with kids this year. Amin...

He bought this for me! :) . Say hi to me if u see me on the road. Hehe

Alkisah baju baru

You all pernah rasa excited nak pakai baju baru? Mesti kan? Hihi. That's what happen to me, all the times! And last monday, i was excited to wear my new cheap tshirt from london.:D £3 je (murah kan? Kalau kat kl, for the quality, i don't think it will be as cheap). My husband is at our second home (singapore). Since dari sebelum tidur dah fikir nak masak ape untuk suami i yang tersayang. So, bangun pagi2, gosok gigi, tenyeh2 mata dengan air paip sikit, basah2 badan lalu terus merembat my new tshirt. Berjalan lah pergi fairprice..."lalalalalalalaaa". Dah balik rumah, change my uniform, then terus lah masak. Sedap bah itu i masak. Maklumlah, kat singapore, they have a lot of instant bumbu. You all tau apa bumbu tu? It's a paste. Kalau pergi supermarket dia, u can find asam pedas, laksa, masak lemak, u name it. Mesti ada. Tapi i jarang lah beli (eceh, nak cover lah konon.padahal rahsia dah terbongkar). Hihi. The whole day we lepak at home je. Bila dinner time, lauk lunch semua dah abes (kan dah kata, i masak sedap. Hubby i dah abeskam semuanya). We decide to dine out. Then i get ready lah. Disebabkan taknak kotorkan baju banyak2, i wear the same tshirt that i wore in the morning. Dah siap2, i tgk kat cermin lalu berkata kat diri sendiri "eh, banyak pulak corak kat baju ni. Timbul plak tu". Bila dah pakai spek, teeeeet! 

Illustrasi artis : korang nampak line merah kat baju tu? Itulah kononnye i thought was extra corak. Tapi sebenarnye pelakat saiz!!! Aaaaah! I walk around macam tu! Malu! >< I senyap2 tear it off. I don't want to let my husband know cuz i think this is the 3rd time this thing happen. Ayyo! Luckily i went to west plaza; not orchard road. :p

Do what u enjoy, if u can't, enjoy what u do

Assalamualaikum!

Laaaamaaaaa gila tak post kat blog ni. Well, i do have lots of stories n topics but then, due to time contraint, takde masa nak update (alasan cliche sangat kan? Haha). Now i'm in frankfurt (my hubby selalu tergeliat lidah nak sebut nama tempat ni). Baru bangun tidur, and baru pas melantak pizza and spaghetti. Halal atau tak, i leave it to Allah as i tried my best to get halal food abroad but kinda hard though. So, my alternative usually is to be vegetarian or take seafood only. Kat Frankfurt ni ade one Thai Restaurant that is Halal. The name is FUN THAI. Usually i pegi makan kat situ. But now tengah winter, it gets dark very quick. It's not that i can't go earlier but....after touchdown tadi kroh kroh bagai nak rak, bangun dah nak asar (1405 dah asar), maghrib at 1630 sat gi.  Kan tak elok anak dara kua sorang2 (oi,anak dara lah sangat!) So, decided just order vegetarian pizza and pasta from room service. Hehe. Boleh tahan lah perut stokin busuk ni sampai dinner jap g.

I'm kinda enjoy my job now. The good thing is, if i cant get along with any of the crew, i can just buat bodoh cuz the chance of working with him/her in the future, quite slim but, tak bestnye, if you met someone sama2 kepala, only last for that flight. Banyak lagi best thing about this job but frankly, banyak side effect gak. Although i loooooooove the job but still, i rather have a small pay job, and be aside my husband and family. I wanna spend all my lifetime with the one I love, not alone;in hotel room overseas, walking along the shopping street alone or went sighseeing with strangers. So, i'm kind of in the middle of enjoying what i do, and do something that i enjoy. :). So people, jangan jelous sangat dengan life i yang luaran nampak glamour but dalam hati...sobsobsob.

Sometimes in life, we cant get both. Right now, maybe u don't feel like u enjoy what u're doing because u're not doing something that u enjoy (faham ke ayat putar2 ni?). I believe it'll drag ur happiness into a deep hole of sorrow in which u'll end up complaining every single thing happen in ur life. U feel that everything doesnt fall right into it's place. And u'll start envy others' life and start stalking and start to find the bad thing about it.and worse of it, mulalah korang mengayam ketupat (i pon sama je mengayam kadang2. hahaha! tapi tengah try untuk tak menganyam banyak sangatm ni). Well people, STOP complaining and ENJOY what u have now can make you the most happiness people on earth. I was last time, keep complain about my high demand pax but, it come to my concious that people do have reason for it. I'm paid to made their journey the most memorable one. So, I STOP complain about them. Even to my colleauges and i start to ENJOY every moment of it. And now, i find myself happier than i was.

Make ur life meaningful, ur presents felt and ur absent be missed (yakin je kan!lol). Tapi enjoy pon enjoy jugak. Dont forget Allah yang satu tu ye...

How we end 2011

2011 end very well for us (but for me personally, few things might ended better). WE ARE MARRIED! This post is all about our wedding. From the solemnization night, to our reception.

We chose 11th November 2011, to mark our new chapter in life, and 20 November 2011 to celebrate it with our family, relatives and friends. We did only one reception. Yes, ONE. Simply because; we had the same circle of friend and we can save not only in terms of expenditure (the wedding dress, the invitation card, the photography) but the time as well. Buat saudara mara yang jauh - jauh tu, tak perlu lah nak datang sampai tiga empat kali kan? :)

Shall we start with our solemnization? :)
It was held at night. So, siang tu still ada masa nak setelkan apa - apa yang tak setel lagi. Seriously, banyak gila benda nak buat. furthermore, i'm not working in KL. One minus point. Each time i came back to KL, i had to spend my time for the wedding prep such, checking the venue, dress fitting, shopping for hantaran, etc... anyway, I was the bride and the wedding planner. T.T
Not being cheapo here, but i rather do it on my own. So, I was on leave dari Raya Haji. Kelam kabut! Mana nak raya, nak makan rendang, nak jaga makan lagi (takut baju nikah sendat.hehe). Tapi Alhamdulillah. everything went well sebab saya ada pembantu yang setia bersama. She's my cousin. :D
And saya ada mak, kakak, abg, adik, abg ipar and my husband's family to help. I'm so grateful for it! Nikah was scheduled after isya'. My MUA janji nak datang pukul 6pm tapi sebabkan hari jumaat, as usual, there were heavy traffic all over. by 6.30, Alhamdulillah, my MUA safely arrived. At the time when she puts the veil on me, she was like, "what happen to the veil?". Jeng..jeng..jeng...It was burnt! I wasn't supposed to iron the veil but i did! and.... biasalah, orang tengah nervous, i didn't realize the iron temperature was too high. tiba-tiba je, lubang my veil. teeeet! nasib baik boleh cover. I had to ask my cousin to sew the veil. If not, togel lah kepala malam tu.

Alhamdulillah, dengan sekali lafaz, I became a wife to Syafeeq Abd Rahim. Macam sebak juga but i rarely cry in public. Dalam hati jelah sobsobsob.
3 days after that, i went back to work... Kesian, baru kahwin da berpisah. huhuhu.

My bestfriends before the ceremony

After i became his'

Lafaz taklik

My new family

My beloved family

My helpful cousin : AAN!

Back in KL after 3 days. And we were sooooooooooooooooo busy for the reception. Our reception was held in Taman Tasik Titiwangsa. My dream of having garden wedding akhirnya came true. hehehe.

entrance to the venue

Our plan is, to make everything simple and near to perfection. We are not that rich to make it soooo grand. Cukuplah dapat celebrate it with our love ones. Two families collaborate in making our plan to reality. And the night before, we met our best-man and bride's maid and other friend whom i appoint to assist in giving out the door gift.  We back to the basic. Bagi telur je. Orang dulu dulu percaya, bagi telur as a symbol of fertility. In a way, wishing the bride and the groom will get baby real soon after they get married. But nowadays, people getting more creative. When we attend a wedding, the usual door gift that we could get are like mug, muffin, and macam macam lagi. Me and hubby, penat dah discuss nak bagi apa. At last, we accept his mom's suggestion to give telur rebus. 

Since it'll be outdoor reception, the arrangement of the table and the ornaments will be done the night before. But....selagi kita menjadi hamba Allah, we'll be continuously tested. Malam tu i had a very bad diarrhea. It made my husband became alone in monitoring the preparation. Luckily, our photographer and videographer came. They were actually surveying the venue for some reason. They then accompany Syafeeq. Allah knows well right?

Next day, after subuh, we went there again. To check up on the preparation but we were bound by our preparation at 11. Alhamdulillah, there were kind soul to help us in make certain that everything is done accordingly. And Alhamdulillah again, the majlis went smoothly...

instead of kompang, we hired a band from VI

Many thanks to my mom, my sister & family, my two brother, my grandma, aan, my in-laws family, my STAR (makk,zati,lynn), husmi, munh,shakila and all families who help us... We do really appreciate it. Doakan we could have kids in near future. :)

And now we are happily married. :) 

12 is coming`

2012 is coming and i'm here in Dubai. Well, so many things happened in 2011. it has been a remarkable year for me and Syafeeq yet for my family.

Just a few updates. Me and syafeeq is happily married (sila cakap congratulation) on November,11th 2011. I've done my umrah a week after our reception (Alhamdulillah) and I'm pregnant (oke, ni tipu. haha). Pregnant is such a big thing. If anyone ask, frankly i'm not ready yet to become a mother but i leave it all to Allah cuz He knows better. At the same time, i'm still under my company's bond. which i think i left about 10 months to go and  i'm free. Yahooo!!! OOpps, Alhamdulillah! ;)

Most of my colleagues don't believe that i'm married. "u're too young darling!'' That's the common expression that i received. Yes i'm young but turning our relationship into Halal is a super great decision. We've been together since we were 16 and we were 25 when we get married. Of course, there were upside-down in our relationship and we managed to get through it and it makes our relationship stronger. I love him very much! And, bila dah kahwin ni, lagi best. Sebab even dengan menatap (chewah) ur husband with love, dah dapat pahala (and i did it without fail everytime i see him). And, lagi best cuz when we go out together, i dun have to worry to inform my mom. hehe.

Well, I'm newcomer so,i still have a looooooooooooooooooooooots of thing to learn. But as long as we know the concept of marriage in Islam and what are our responsibilities, i believe our marriage will last forever (doakan k!). There are few couple out there, yang kadang2 bila dia selalu keluarkan duit, years later, mula nak mengungkit. If he's or she's ur girlfriend or boyfriend, takpelah kot nak mengungkit. But, u're married! Mak saya pernah berpesan, bila dah kahwin, rezeki yang kita dapat tu, share dengan our soulmate walau sesikit mana, and sebanyak mana rezeki yang Allah bagi tu. And if u think ur husband/wife has a lots of flaw, please keep it between you and him. If i'm not mistaken, dosa if we spread the words. Tok kadi saya cakap, "walau seburuk mana pasangan anda, terima dia dengan seadanya. Kalau dia suka tidur, kita kena terima. Kalau dia tidur berdengkur pon, terima jugak. Bila kita bersabar, pasti ada balasan dari Allah" .

Marriage is a beautiful thing. Kalau kita cakap, bayi yang lahir tu ibarat kain putih, ibu bapa yang akan mencorakkannya, i think i'm not wrong to say that marriage is as well like a clean canvas. It's up to you and ur soulmate how to paint it. Doesn't matter what comes in ur way, as long as u know how to handle it, I'm sure u'll be fine. Whatever mistakes that u've done, always muhasabah diri sendiri before u start to blame other. Remember, people around u may give their own opinion based on the surface, but u know things well. So, take everything into account before u make ur decision. They give comment, but u r the one who make the decision.

I'll blog about my wedding and our honeymoon soon. Meantime, pls enjoy some of our wedding picture. :D

on our solemnization night

 our reception 

my family 

p/s: sayang, i dun have ur family's picture

I guess that's all! It's 1135 in dubai now and my check out time is 1610. I wanna have my power nap before flight or else, i may become a singa stewardess. hahaha! 

Almost 14

It's almost 14 years and it has been 13 years since last time i wish "Happy Father's Day" to someone whom i called ayah. The thought of you will never fade as I love you very much. May ur soul be blessed by Allah always. Al-fatihah~